Hi, my name is Jessica. I feel like I'm an abnormally odd person living a completely normal-ish life. I wasn't raised to be a chicken, a whiner, or to depend on a man or anyone to take care of me. And yet, I ended up scared of everything, paranoid about death, afraid of people, and completely dependent on my boyfriend --who takes care of me and accepts every part of my being. I'm very, very lucky to have the life I have... and my goal with this blog is to try to help people who have anxiety problems like me, to say to them they are not alone and are not total weirdos.... and to give the people who don't have these problems an insight on a different kind of life. I also want to share my ideas, my opinions, share awesome things I see... I want to show people that every single person can connect in some way.
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| My boyfriend(Dakota) and I. |
Now everything about me isn't all bad. I'm extremely passionate and ambitious (even if the things I am ambitious about aren't working a normal job). I am intense, happy, kind of a hippy and am obsessed with animals. I am also obsessed with fashion and interior decorating. My boyfriend, my mom and my dog are my absolute best friends, and my horse, my bird, my cat, my sister, my sisters man, my grandma, my other dog, my other cat, my other horse, my cousin and the rest of my family are also my favoritest people in the world.
I feel like I have 2 different people living inside me (NO not multiple personality disorder HA!).
The first person is a tough, outgoing, people person who laughs at everything, sings to every song on the radio, would spend every second shopping for anything... A person who rides and trains horses, wants to ride my horse in the worlds and wants to be a millionare. This person loves anything that sparkles or shines, is pink, or has rhinestones on it. She wants to take every animal home with her and take care of it, she wants to save every tree, she wants to end war and spread the peace and love. She wants to be important, she always has a goal, and has such a high willpower that she can and will get all the things she wants in life.
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| Me riding my amazing horse, Rosie. |
- And then theres the other person- the person who won't answer her own phone if she doesn't recognize the number. The girl who can't go to the grocery store by herself. The one who has to take her daily dose of prozac to prevent her monthly spout of cancer or organ failure. The one who doesn't trust any person 100%. The one that doesn't want to be afraid, knows the things she's afraid of are unrealistic, and is still afraid.
I am constantly in conflict with myself.
So, my plan:
I have so many stories to tell, experience to share and advice to give..
Some posts may be about me, or my opinion.. which of course I am looking for people to comment on.
Others may be cool DIY ideas that I have found and tried.
Sometimes I may just rant on.....
Who knows, I don't really know yet...
So yeah.
I hope somebody reads this.
